Tatiana Ilina Tatiana
These people are everywhere. It is much more of them than we think. They try not to stand out from the crowd, living a double life, hiding, and hiding.
What is it for them - the tragedy of which they are silent?
Is it the pain caused by the dissonance between what they see themselves and what they really are?
Perhaps a passionate desire for something forbidden, concealed, that makes them feel different, to change everything at least for a few hours.
The other world and this world will never meet?
All these questions are not left me since, as I allowed myself to look at them closer.
I have learned a lot - have their faces that read all of these questions, mixed with doubts, fears, unrestrainable emotions, and some protest.
It was the protest against nature, against himself, against the silence.
This protest, enclosed deep within, was expanding and it was ready to absorb everything.
Andrew is married, despite the fact that men and intimacy with them has always attracted him more than women. His wife does not share his enthusiasm, and he hides it from her. Andrew is going through, that he can’t find a partner or several partners, who would understand his passion and still treat it seriously. He is looking for real feelings.
Valeria lives with his girlfriend, with whom they soon plan to get married. The girl understands and shares the passion of her friend, helping him to do the unusual make-up and match outfits. She believes that men should be allowed to play in something, otherwise they go off to other women.
Vera from childhood feels himself like a woman. His first experience was at age 6 in kindergarten. His friend offered to make him a blowjob, what Vera gladly accepted. Now he lives with a woman friend, who works as a prostitute, and with her little son. Vera plans soon to find a boyfriend to move in with him and build a family with him.
Dasha likes women, he is interested in art and lives a creative life. Changing to a woman is his secret passion, his photos as a woman he places on the Internet, and there meet women who are tired of the dull family life and looking for a variety of man like him.
Gioconda arrived from Ulan-Ude and literally conquered the world with his incredible ability to create unusual women’s clothing, and due to a good voice. He makes creative videos and playing in clubs with his own programs. Gioconda is anxious that in small towns people with a non-standard orientation are marginalized and can realize themselves only moving to megacities.
He lives with his mother and worries due to the fact that he could not find a girl who would perceive him not as a man, but as the same girl. For the first time he felt a desire to become a woman when his mother, and her friend dressed him in women’s clothes to get into the restaurant, where the entrance is only for women. After that, reincarnation became his main passion.
Xenia takes hormones, but does not want to do surgery yet, as he is interested in diverse sexual life. He is looking for partners for both men and women, arranges group meetings in his home and believes that in the sexual sphere itself can’t be anything to restrict.